I'm Just Saying

Dr. Paul Perkins

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Dr. Perkins has written for a long time, but only recently has sought to publish his work and venture into new genres. He believes in education, finally earning his doctorate at the age of 55. He believes that learning never ends, giving fodder to the imagination and breathing life into the characters on his page. His hope is to continue telling stories for a new generation of readers and aspiring authors.

Dr. Perkins' first novel is "Centurion: From glory to glory", but is not his first book. He has written "Legacy to my sons", "The Lost Shepherd", "The prayer of a transformed life", "The Cost", and a verity of Christian Youth Devotionals. 

Why I Hate Church: Part Nine

            When church becomes a business and we hire professionals then we apply business practices to maintain the ministry.  A young man who grew up in my Youth Group had been called by God to enter the ministry as a Youth Pastor.  After a couple of positions in small churches he found himself back home.  We needed someone to oversee our children’s program part time, and I talked the congregation into letting me hire him with the promise that I would be his mentor.  The tone was set, however, when the question was raised to my ability to fire him if he didn’t perform. 

He was great with the kids, and on Sunday mornings they would run up to him and give him hugs and hold his hand.  What he didn’t do well was recruit and lead other adults in a growing children’s ministry.   I would give him assignments in the area of his weakness but he struggled with them and eventually defaulted back to what was comfortable.  In the end he just under performed.  I was feeling pressure from parents and the Elders 
and in the end I let him go.

Another staff member was hired to strengthen the administrative side of the church.  She balanced my weakness and was good at it.  She helped organize the deacons, took care of the facilities, oversaw the secretarial staff, and made sure that everything we did was legal and above board.  Yet, she rubbed people the wrong way because her default answer to requests was no, and when there was a financial shortfall it was easily decided that her position would be eliminated.  What hurt her the most was that I (or the elders) didn’t seek her input for a solution.  I think behind her statement was a willingness to work for a reduced salary until we were back on our feet financially.  I had said we were a team and in the end I treated her like an employee.

Worship is an integral part of Sunday morning and when I became Senior Pastor I sat with the lay worship leader to make sure that we were on the same page.  We had worked together before, but she was always in charge.  She was talented and the people she led loved her.  When we sat down I told her that if we were going to have conflict it would be over one thing.  She wanted a big praise team and I wanted several small ones – and I was the Senior Pastor.  In the end it drove us apart.  Instead allowing her the freedom to thrive with her vision I held to what I wanted and we had a parting of the ways, and it wasn’t pleasant.

I regret all three situations and outcome.  If I had it to do all over again I would fight for my team, my apprentice, my friends.  I do believe there are times to stand firm for ones ideas and convictions.  I believe that people who are living in sin should suffer the consequences of unrepentant hearts.  But none of the above situations fall into those categories and my leadership failed them.  
Rom. 12:2 And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, so that you may prove what the will of God is, that which is good and acceptable and perfect.

From a worldly business perspective the outcome of each situation could be seen as the proper move, and I justified them as such.  I Hate Church because it turned me into something that I loathed, and I am sorry.  I’m just saying… (Continued).